The Lying Truth

You have two hands to hold me and two to let me go
You have a voice to tell me all I need to know
You have two eyes to trust me and a heart to beat with mine
And you have this thought saying she was here all this time

That I'd want you to know that I was always here
During bad times good times, till they disappeared
When it was fun, when it was done, when it was worst
When life felt good and when it hurt

That I'd want you to know and face and turn around
I was here during your ups and downs
Then she came along and pushed me so far away
So far away...

Now I can't move on and face the truth you made
After all I've done and all I've laid
But you never knew what way my mistake
And now it's just too late...

And boy when you see me again
I won't be the friend that I was then
'Cause you couldn't see the truth I so wanted you to know
You to know...

And I know you're forever gone
One hand lets go but the other holds on
It's hurts so much yet you'll never see
That the one you needed most was me

But it's okay, it's definitely alright!
Let's continue this heartbreaking fight
'Cause you're still blind and will never see
The sword you landed so hard on me

Yeah it's okay, take my word
Suck it up 'cause you've got your girl
You think it'll stay like that till the end of the world?
Think again

Your Eyes Look Sad Tonight

Help me swim thru, this whirlpool of love
Give me one last kiss and one last long hug
'Cause (I'll never see you again 2x)

Tonight

Give me one last kiss tonight
One last hug tonight
It's 'gonna happen on the same very night

Tonight

At exactly 6 o'clock
It's 'gonna happen at 6 o'clock
Make sure you're ready this time 'cause this it's for real

I'm 'gonna be there
I'm 'gonna see you for the last time
This aching heart but when you ask I'm always fine
No drug to cure me no you to tell me it's alright

Tonight

'Gonna break my heart tonight
'Gonna fight this pain tonight
'Cause it's the last time that I'll ever hear your voice again

Tonight

'Gonna lose myself tonight
'Gonna make this my worst night, tonight
'Gonna find myself in no ones heart

Tonight

I'll leave you there tonight
Leave you with the tears I left behind
Then you'll forget me since we're running out of time

Tonight

Wanna stop the clock tonight
Want you in my arms tonight
Just tonight, forget 'bout all you other nights

Tonight

Insisting

My hair is a slight brown and my skin is pearl white
Why do you insist going with that dreadful fright?
I do normal things 'cause I'm normal myself
She smells like dumpsite. Boy, she's bad for your health!

I don't bite my fingers, I choose my clothes well
You're like a dove and a fly. Oh what the hell!
I memorize your number, I KNOW your last name
I'd scream it out now but you might think I'm insane

Compare me to that fly, who'd make time worthwhile?
When I see you together I do my best to smile
But inside oh inside, if you only knew!
If she'd let her guard down, oh the things I would do!

Read it in my voice, look into my eyes
Reach out for the truth, I'm fed up with my lies
Feel my cold hand and make it warm again
Give me that one ring that says it's not the end

Realize(song)

You have two hands to hold me, and two to let me go
You have one lip to tell me, all I need to know
You have two eyes to trust me and a heart to beat with mine
And you have this thought saying she was here all this time

That I'd want you to know

I'd want you to know that I was always here
During bad times, good times till they disappeared
When you were there and I'd be ready to help you no matter what

That I'd want you to know

And face and turn around
I was there when you had your ups and downs
Cause I keep my word and I'll never leave you till the end

That I'd want you to know

How much I care for you
How many things that I could do
If only this dream of mine could somehow come true

That I'd want you to know

Deception

When life is satiated with hate, full of anger bearing fury
When luck keeps coming late and happiness is in a hurry

When the black crows never fly away, when the rain just keeps on falling
When the good things left die away, when aversion is calling

When it's time for that sudden strike, once in nightmares now for real
What more than you're scared of what would hurt more than you'd feel

What you'd wish would never come true, what you loved you'd never hate
What you said you'd never do but you were just too freaking late

What you'd hear would never scream, what you'd taste wouldn't be poison
What you'd see wouldn't be clouds but a full-blown God-like horizon

What would happen would always be good, what would live would never die
Always preaching truth while living in a lie!

Lost Time

I miss those happy times when everything was in its place
When our humor was the same when there was nothing I would erase
When our paths were exact, when we had the same destination
When you’d be there till the end and all you’d ask for was appreciation

I want those days back! I could call and shout it back
But lost time can’t be bought again and that’s a painful fact
Wish the butterflies could fly again wish the bees could keep buzzing
Wish the skies could show their light again wish the birds would keep flying
Wish the forests weren't this thick again wish the sea was calm once more
Wish the joy that we've found would stay found forevermore

I never knew what hit us what divided us in two
Like lightning separated us and sliced our friendship through
Like the thunder shook our love apart as an avalanche struck
It's hard to take it with this weary heart I've survived thought it from luck

Our friendship bonds are broken the glass pane now so stained
The beach was now deserted, only our foot steps remained
From the sun to the sunset, to pure pitch dark black
The only wish I would want to make is if maybe I could go back?

Here We Go Again

It’s gonna be another day, another week bearing this sad thought
I didn’t want to fall again but for the millionth time I was caught
These feelings, these encounters with you all seem like a dream
My sudden reactions to you, what do they exactly mean?

It could be easier to except you as who you are
But although you would sit next to me you’d still seem so far
The trigger for my love for you was because of everything about you
I could love you till the end of time, nothing could seem so true

But your attention was not for me it was for that disaster
Is there something in your eyes? ‘Cause I’m right here, why her?
She’s the cause of all your problems, all you ever do is fight
Why do you do it all wrong when you can turn things so right?
You’re my model you’re my crush you’re a true friend and even more
You deserve someone who loves you so what is she for?
I could tell you that I love you but I’m afraid what you might say
Wish you could figure it out and realize some other way

For Mikah

Eyes closed, teardrops falling
Hearing voices saying, "it's okay"
Life's a dream but there are nightmares
And that nightmare was when you told me you couldn't stay
"I'll miss you", what I said
Although it only made the tears grow stronger
Realizing this was fate
And you could only be here a bit longer
I never expected that this would happen
Never knew this nightmare would come true
The ninth last word rhymes with saddened
While each line's saying, "DON'T COME TRUE!"
During those trying times, the tears and pain
You held an umbrella to help me withstand all that rain
You lightened me up, the clouds disappeared
You were loyal to me and most of all sincere
I'd thank you a million times but
That would never be enough
With you no longer by my side
I know that it's going to be tough
But I'll keep in my mind what you've told me
The advice you've given before
Especially since
You won't be here anymore.

Actually made on March 18

Time Won't Wait

I need to choose the right path, I need to make time wait
I have to tell him how much I love him before it's too late
Have to race with the time, have to hold all those 'ticks'
Have to score the good points, have to grant my one wish!
Have to learn how to walk, have to know when to speak
Have to show up as a lady not an ignorant freak!
Have to do the right things, have to make no mistakes
In this kind of situation hardly anybody ever waits
Have to follow his tweets, have to like his pics
Have to hit the bulls eye and make it seem like a trick
Have to steal Cupid's arrow,

Figure It Out

Your lime green shoes just drive me crazy
That build of yours is just so amazing
In that yellow shirt, others can't compare!
I'll grow up someday, so wait right there

I'm still so young and you still can't see
So my crush on you will remain a mystery
You'll never know how my heart reacts
When I see you there so I turn my back

The truth in your eyes, why can't you still see
That who you're looking at is your destiny?
You see that ring? It was made for me
But you don't have a clue, do you honey?

That girl you're with, I can't figure out
She keeps staring at me, now what's that all about?
Why is SHE the magnet of your heart?
Finish that race and begin a REAL start

I've always been here, she's just there for the song
She's just there for the story while I'm here all night long
Now I'm wasting my time playing songs on the piano
While she slides down the aisle in those dark blue stilettos

Meeting a guy like you is a chance encounter
Stop looking because you have already found her
So just turn around and you will see
That the girl you're really dreaming of is me.

That's the way it goes!

It was a quarter before midnight
That was really late for me
I could feel my battery dying
But in spite of that I could still see
The clock would tick so slowly
Yet so fast, I don't know
Sometimes time flies and then it stops
I wonder where it goes?
Well, it's time to close my tired eyes
There are still demons to slay and dragons to ride
Still lamps to wish on and princes to marry
Still treasure to find and trophies to carry
Still flowers to pick and roast beef to bake
Still witches to fight and burn at the stake
Still hair to be fixed and dresses to fit
Still ponies to ride and homeruns to hit
Good night.

Nothing Unmasked!

I want to be free from the bars that hold me inside
I want to find the key that put me to hide
To open the door that was never unlocked
Or to climb out the window which was way at the top
To break out the cage that no one can see
To take off this mask and live and let be
To taste a real life than to live this dead one
To live without worries and be someone
To destroy the force field that no one can feel
To make others see that I'm the real deal
To take off these stolen shoes and to put on my own
To leave this palace and walk back home
To look in my heart rather than in someone's eyes
To blow out the clouds so that the sun will realize
That, that star shines brighter than it did before
It must have found the key to open that door
Must have reached the window which was way at the top
Must have opened the door that was never unlocked
Must have lived a real life from waking up from the dead one
Must have became famous and became someone
Must have broke out the force field that no one could feel
Must have unmasked the face that was never real
Must have arrived home from that palace, mansion
Must have won the race in the decathlon
Must have broke out the cage that no one could see
And gave life one more chance and live and let be.

Reality Nightmare

There are times I would wake up another dimension
With odd different things circling my every direction
When it'd go too far I'd pinch myself to get my attention
But I couldn't wake up, I was stuck in this mansion
There were unicorns and bicycles and clown fish around me
Then dinosaurs and centipedes and powerful genies
It went orange then red then from yellow to blue
Ask my occipital brain because it told it was true!
I was flying then falling then walking and more
I was screaming and laughing and crying, ''no more!''
What was this sensation was it reality or a dream?
Felt like some king of made up story I read in Candy magazine
There were circles and triangles and lines going zigzag
Some kind of beginning of an end that was one thought I had
I would shiver I would sweat I would freeze then just plain melt
I'd be strong I'd be weak I'd me happy the I'd regret
I'd be a loser to a winner or than from the best to the worst
I didn't wish this from that genie instead he must have put a curse!
I could back flip and front flip and make like number eight
I could have all those six senses and that was kind of great
But suddenly I felt handcuffs on both of my hands
They said I broke the rules and added more 'ands'
Then I realized they were pirates because they made me walk the plank
I had no choise so deep down I sank
Thinking it was the end I took one last breath
Thought I'd breath in water but it wasn't yet my death!
So slowly my eyes opened then I found out that it had rained
My underwear was soaked but is it me to blame?

A Mind In Test

The paper was blank.
"Blank", that's the word.
Then the teacher said "begin".
"Begin" was what we heard.
So I took the piece of paper,
And I read it, the I said,
"I wish I didn't wake up for this,
I should've stayed in bed".
Without choice I began to answer,
But I answered very slow.
Then when I looked at the watch,
I wondered where the time did go?
Just about a minute more!
More than sixty seconds plus!
I can just see it now...
My grades buried in the dust.

February 4 2010

hard days

Eyes closed teardrops falling,
Hearing voices saying, "it's okay".
Life's a dream but there are nightmares,
And that nightmare was when you told me you couldn't stay.
"I'll miss you", what I said.
Though it only made my tears flow stronger,
Realizing this was fate.
And you could only be here a bit longer.
I never expected that this would happen,
Never knew this nightmare would come true,
The ninth last word rhymes with "saddened",
While each line's saying. "Don't come true".
During those trying times the tears and pain,
You held an umbrella to help me withstand all that rain.
You lightened me up the clouds disappeared,
You were loyal to me and most of all sincere.
I'd thanks you a million times but,
That would never be enough.
With you no longer by my side,
I know that it's going to be tough.
But I'll keep in mind what you've told me,
The advice you've given before.
Especially since,
You won't be here anymore.

I actually wrote this on March 18 2010 :)

The Beginning Of An End

I could feel the teardrops falling,
Like a never ending death.
The excuses still were soaring,
And the words were full of breath.
Our shadows, close in morning,
But apart when night had come.
For our friendship was falling,
And my heart louder than drums.
I could not here your little whispers,
Although I knew they were of me.
You have called me a resister,
But true that was not, see?
It felt like I was fading,
First the sun than a small candle.
Like walking on hot lava,
With only a broken sandal.
So when the time had come,
And once the clock had struck its end,
We together released the rope we held,
And whispered, "goodbye my friend".